Summer Days Are Gone

This is the view I had outside my window today. It's gorgeous. I think I should tote my camera around more often. I got quite a few pictures like this today. If you like more they're on facebook and pola-444.deviantart.com

I had a pretty awesome day today. I woke up wanting to kill Alan. Tie him to a bed and flay him alive kinda of mood. Then I went and had breakfast/lunch with Keith, Clinton, Dan, and Adam. We talked about everything from anime to religion to ridiculous experiences.

Robert came over and we hung out for many hours, but this was after I had a nap. I always enjoy my time with him, especially when he makes me choke to death on my food. We were dating, only on facebook. It's to make a point that nothing is really official on facebook. Today he broke up with me. It made me slightly sad. I hope we still hang out. I think we will. I taught him how to hold hands, and that stuff. Stupid stuff. I have this weird feeling that I'd like to teach Joe the same things. I think he'd be cute through out the whole thing.

I wrote Alan a massive facebook message today. It made me sick as I composed it in the shower. I wrote it out to him on facebook and told him I hated him because I miss him so intensely. I don't like it. I hate not talking to me. It makes me ill. I love him. I hate him. I miss him. "Love you hate you miss you" is a great book, and that's what that makes me think of.

I feel like I have internet friends jockying for my time. They want me but alas they are far away.

Also, the really cute ginger is talking to me. I really like him. However, he has the feel of Matt about him, and I'm not so into that. I wouldn't mind dating him. Robert said to go for him, but I'm not about to attack him. I'm going to go slow, he may not be into me. It'd be cool. He seems super sweet. I think he said he gave up on the whole dating thing. He's a boy. He acts like it. I don't know we'll see. I'm rushing.

Life sucks, and it's fucking amazing at the same time.

~Nicole