Re-Vamp (college day 2)

I've decided that this is the perfect place to keep a blog. It's totally forgotten by me and many other people. I've decided that I need somewhere to vent about my personal feelings and what's going on and so forth.

If you don't want to know about my college life and doings, please remove me from your watch list, what have you. I'm still not sure how this site works.

My goal is to up date this every day, if possible. If I can't, well that will suck. We'll see how long I can do this for. I have a feeling I might actually be able to keep up with this because I always have a lot to say.

My Piercings
Right now my tongue piercing is acting fine, but if I forget to take motrin it really starts to act and up and start to hurt. I'm really trying not to play with it, and I'm doing a pretty good job not flicking it against my teeth. However I move the bar around in my mouth. The only issue I'm having with this piercing is eating. I have to eat slower now, which really sucks when I'm on a rush, but I guess it's good for my eating habits. I can't use my tongue on my upper teeth really well. Once you can't do it, you'll realize you really need your tongue to eat. It really sucks, and I always have to apologize for my open mouth eating and what not. It's not fun, but at the same time it is.

There's this other girl with snake bites in my Ancient History class. She has a bit of an attitude problem it seems, and it irks me. I feel like I'm the odd girl out. My personality is conflicting with my outer appearance. I look like I could pass as a goth/punk possibly. Yet I'm one of the nerdiest girls you'll ever meet. It's weird. But from that girl, I can see why people might think I'm trouble. It really sucks.

College
I feel like I'm at summer camp, and that means I'm not the happiest person alive. I never liked summer camp! I never got along with the other girls. I mean, I've always wanted a chance to go back and fix that and I wanted to go to summer camp as I'm older, but I'm remembering why I disliked it so much. My room mate is really chill, and nice. She's just never here really. Tonight I have the room to myself. I almost said hotel. It feels like that. My suitmates aren't around either. One is the RA, who's a senior. The other is this girl who's kind of a loner. Not very talkative. Thankfully I found a group of girls I really like, one girl in particular. We eat together all the time and it's really nice. I like it. I need more male friends like Joe around. Like physically you know. I could never replace Joe!!

Some of the people I've seen here have scared me, or made me laugh. There was this girl with daisy duke shorts, and fish net stockings. I mean it's something I would do, but she had a leopard print shirt on top, and she just looked like the kind of girl you would see giving some guy a blow job on a porno. It was wonderful.

I've only had one class so far, and it was my Ancient History class. My teacher is British. She said "jolly good" many times and it makes me giggle. The people in my class appear intelligent, which is nice. I don't feel like we have idiots in class. We talked about death, school, and all that jazz. Along with squirrels and skippy the limbless man. It was pretty epic. I just hate when people don't like it when I don't agree with them. I also sometimes say conflicting things, because I feel like I can bring up more than one point. I like to compromise.

The food here is surprisingly really really good. I had amazing tatter tots today. I nearly died. Yesterday for dinner I had Terayaki chicken. It was amazing. They also have self served icecream. It makes me really happy. The only issue is my dinning all is only open until 7pm at night and I have classes that don't end until 9pm. I'm also planning on taking a gym class from 9:30pm to 10:30pm. I don't want to eat before that, but I guess I can. But yeah, I was really really surprised on the food. I thought it'd be terrible. Another thing I don't like is my meal plan. I can get 10 meals a week, and 400 dollars munch money for the semester. It's not that much. But what I'm thinking is that, Monday-Wednesday and Friday I'll only be able to get 1 meal in anyways. Thursday, Saturday, and Sunday I have plenty of time to get two meals. I guess I'll try to get that.

Another News
I have a few bad habits I want to address. One, smoking. It's a terrible habit, and I only pick it up in times of extremely bad lows. I mean like, really really really bad lows. I feel embarrassed smoking out in the designated smokers section of my college. I don't like it. I don't feel like getting into the other ones, because honestly, I feel like I'm going to be the only one reading this and I really don't want to spread certain things.

I'm still having a terrible time about my break up with Alan. I don't even call him Alan Greg any more. I guess that was a pet name. I'm still miserable about it, but I think I'm getting better. I haven't cried in a day I think. I still get down, and really wish I was still with him, but I think people are right. There are other people better suited out there for me. I just have to look for them. That's a problem, because I look too hard. I mean I've met a lot of really really nice guys today. I would really adore to have some DnD buddies, and like a guy I can go cry too. 'cause guys give really good hugs compared to girls. They don't have boobs to get in the way.

I think that's about it for tonight. I'm getting really really sleepy. There's a lot more that when on today, but I don't feel like talking about it.

~Nicole